Thursday night

hi again.

Well its late, thursday night. and I guess you can say I havent been sleeping all that well. Noah has been extremely restless, and i have been really uncomfortable. Im 20 weeks now and half way through this..lol. We had our ultrasound done on tuesday, healthy baby, everything looks good she said and Im hoping it all stays that way.

This summer has been nice, and now we are going home **sob** Noah will miss everyone here so much, he has grew so attached to my brother chad. And I know it will be hard for noah to adjust again to going back, he has no uncles in bella bella that really take time and play with him, chad goes all out, takes him for walks, plays with him outside, puts him to sleep, everything you can imagine. And i know noah will be looking for him when we get home. :(

Tomorrow we will be going to shuswap lake for the afternoon. I hope the weather is nice. Im hungry right now and i think im going to go have a bite to eat, what I dunno, but an apple sounds nice.

here is noah again ...thinking hes a big boy for getting on

the chair all by himself.

And here is Noah and my Dog CC. she is 14 years old. and

i love here soo much. I miss her when im in Bella Bella.

Well I also informed my cousin cam that I will not be able to be a bridesmaid in her wedding. It was upsetting for me to have to back out and know im going to miss her wedding. We are very close and I never thought I could miss this. But realistically, we cant afford to travel in the month of November. It would cost over $1000.00 to fly then needing to rent a car or have someone pick us up in Van...And the ferry is $500.00 plus gas for 2 days travel and hotel and another ferry. then another 2 days travel back to bella bella, another 2 nights in a hotel and 2 ferry rides. PLUS being, by that time 8 months preggo, it would be too hard, and we need all the money we can save to go have baby #2 in January in kamloops. So its bothering me right now knowing i cant go to her wedding, i wish i could. but things cant always work the way you want them. :(

Im starting school this Sept....and P/T work. so im going to be a busy bunny. especially after #2 is born.

Well Like i said ..."life isnt meant to be easy".

take care and pleasent dreams to all.